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I've bookmarked The Ultimate Cheat Sheet For Reinventing Yourself, and I think you should, too. I've had to reinvent myself a couple of times, and it's a lot tougher than it looks, but I succeeded in no small part because I had no other choice.

Just for example:


  • As an undergrad in Math, I was sure that I would go on to a doctoral program and have a career teaching and researching mathematics. Then I saw just how horribly grim the employment picture was for Math PhDs and abandoned that idea. I regretted that decision for years, but in hindsight it was absolutely sound; I would have just had to reinvent myself anyway after a few years of underemployment.

  • After the 2001 dot-bomb and a subsequent period of unemployment and underemployment, I got burned out on software engineering. I then spent a few years trying to figure out what to do next. Once I figured that out, I abandoned software engineering as a career and reinvented myself as a systems administrator, which is my current occupation.

  • My wife was a metals student but got burned out on metal work; five years later, she's a world-class printmaker.



Also, any Thelemite who's serious about their path is eventually going to run into a Crisis of Will, and this commonly (but not always) manifests itself as "I know my Will is X but X looks impossible to do from here." The good news here is that X is possible. The bad news is that you're just going to have to be smart and tough about getting to X. The ugly news is that you're very likely to be ill prepared for the transition to X. Fortunately, this guide covers all that.

I like this guide a lot, but I present it with a few caveats.

  1. The author states in his second paragraph:

    I’ve had to change careers several times. Sometimes because my interests changed. Sometimes because all bridges have been burned beyond recognition, sometimes because I desperately needed money. And sometimes just because I hated everyone in my old career or they hated me.


    This tells me that the author probably had to do this several times because he's an asshole, and also because he was probably incompetent at more than a few of his careers. That doesn't mean his advice is bad - in fact, it speaks to how much experience he's had trying to rebuild. But if you need to get your advice from people who are nice, or people who have never failed, then you should skip this guide. (If you're in this category and a Thelemite, you should sell all your Crowley books, leave whatever Thelemic organizations you've joined, and become a Unitarian. I'm not kidding.)

  2. You may be nothing (see "B"), but your prior experience will also be your mentor (see "D3").


  3. For my money, I would not publicly claim "I do X!" (See I) until you've done X for three years (see F). It just makes you look like Adam in this conversation:

    Beth: So, what do you do?
    Adam: I'm a professional stage actor!
    Beth: Oh. So, what do you do for a living?


  4. As for (K), three years of this kind of dedication won't necessarily put you in the top 200-300 people. For example, if you're talking web application design, multiply those numbers by ten. You'll still make a living at it.


  5. As for (UU), I think that's bad advice. Do this instead: read (A). Then (B). Then (E). Then (N). Then (R). My rule of thumb is that if you're treading water, it's only a matter of time before you drown.


One more bit of advice: it is always possible to re-invent your way back to what you loved before, even if it's not exactly what you did before.

Good luck.
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Love is the Law, by Nick Mamatas, 2013 Dark Horse.

Grade: B

I first heard about this project from Mamatas's LJ ([livejournal.com profile] nihilistic_kid) - he presented it as (and I'm paraphrasing here), "Nancy Drew, but she has an orange mohawk, is into Aleister Crowley, and it's set in 1989." A while later [livejournal.com profile] keith418 intimated that this project would be inspired, in part, by his own posts on Thelema, magick, and politics. This, then, presented a unique opportunity to read a contemporary, fictional representation of ceremonial magick that wasn't set in a pure fantasy world and that doesn't just suck. Naturally, I had to snatch it up. This book is captivating, perhaps unsettling, and is bound to make others in the OTO more uncomfortable than it should.

Our protagonist is Dawn, the aforementioned punk rock Nancy Drew, and also the ultimate latchkey kid - her entire family has been consumed, one way or another, by various demons, leaving her basically on her own, save for her Bernstein, her mentor and initiator. The novel opens, however, with Bernstein dead of an apparent suicide that Dawn believes was actually murder. Her magical education and initiation not yet complete, she sets out to discover the identity of Bernstein's assassin. Dawn is a jarring character in many ways. Two come particularly to mind: her casual relationship to sex during the height of AIDS, and her vulnerability when faced with Bernstein's fellow initiates as they act out their designs. IMO she's all the more jarring because, in the final analysis, she's realistic, both as an eighties punk rock girl, and as an exemplar of how a neophyte, with her inner cop kept in check but still unaware of her deeper motives, should act.

The setting is Long Island in 1989, about which I know nothing; but Mamatas makes it disturbing, vibrant, dark, and horrifyingly alive, the way I remember - the way I felt - Chicago in 1989, albeit with less sprawl and more military contractors. East Germany is about to collapse, and with it the Warsaw Pact. Here Mamatas shines, as he captures the zeitgeist of that autumn, the vain hopes of the various socialist groups, and the inevitability of the neoconservative revolution to come. One wonders whether the socialists of that year wouldn't commit suicide if they knew not only of the events to come - that the "liberal hope" Barack Obama would gleefully oversee and defend a military and surveillance regime that Reagan only dreamed about - but of the deeper crisis of the 2010s, wherein the only ideas that truly challenge the Frankenstein's monster of neoliberal economics and neoconservative foreign policy come not from the left, but from the right (2) (3).

I do have some issues with the plot of this novel. It's convoluted, a bit screwy, and in some places just too convenient to be true. I can appreciate that Dawn is acting out of motives that she doesn't necessarily understand - this is a staple thesis of [livejournal.com profile] keith418's critiques of OTO leadership, after all. But often I find myself asking, "yeah, why doesn't she just say 'screw it' and head to Manhattan, or Brooklyn, and get on with her life as a Long Island expat?" Maybe this is the question we're supposed to ask. Maybe the answer is that Dawn is trapped - whether by the spirits of Long Island, or her mentor's spell, or the historical dialectic, or by her True Will to which she must submit - and that she therefore doesn't have free will, let alone free will to run off and live happily ever after.

I would probably loan this book to the smarter class of person who wanted to know "what's this Thelema all about, anyway." I would present it with a couple of caveats. Will as a magical force doesn't work quite the way it's presented here. Initiation, without going into detail, is somewhat more formalized now than it used to be. These caveats aside, it certainly makes a better beginner book than most of what's out there.

(Read other reviews of this book here and here)
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